Somehow, virtually no one at school gave a fuck about Kanye unless it was to talk about how much of a jackass he was. They’d rather talk about why I was fucking them over in group projects and not doing my share of work than break down the new Kanye song that had dropped. When I’d return to class on Mondays, all attempts to make conversations with other kids were null. There was a growing sense of helplessness inside of me, creating a constant mountain of procrastination and nonparticipation, intensified by the fact I wasn’t on track for college. Fridays and that I could play Warcraft, when subconsciously I wanted to avoid all obligations and be alone. I made excuses to myself that I was staying home to hear whatever new track was coming out through G.O.O.D. At some point during in fall I completely stopped going to school on Fridays. I became more indifferent to everything around me the closer that day came. The only date that mattered to me was November 22, 2010, when Kanye would finally release his new album, My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy. I didn’t send any applications out, resigned to my fate of being another kid who would end up going to community college until I figured out some kind of plan. Images would pour into my head: beating the shit out of The Lich King to “Can’t Tell Me Nothing,” exploring the open wastes of the world solo to “Coldest Winter,” gearing up for battles to the beat of “Jesus Walks.” While I was off in KanyeWarcraftCity, everyone else at school was stuck in college application craziness, worried about getting into whichever UC branches they applied to and sending in applications before the deadline date. I’d count seconds on the clock and scrawl his verses into my notebook, like scripture. My senior year of high school, the only things I cared about were World of Warcraft and Kanye West. For the month of November, Noisey will be remembering the buildup to Kanye West's My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy with a weekly series of G.O.O.D.
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